Fight The Fight Alone,
When The World Is Full Of Victims,
Dims A Fading Light,
In Our Souls.
Leave The Peace Alone,
How We All Are Slowly Changing,
Dims A Fading Light,
In Our Souls.
In My Opinion Seeing Is To Know,
The Things We Hold,
Are Always First To Go,
And Who's To Say,
We Won't End up Alone.
On broken wings I'm falling,
And it won't be long,
The skin on me is burning,
By the fires of the sun,
On skinned knees,
I'm bleeding,
And it won't be long,
I've got to find that meaning,
I'll search for so long.
Cry ourselves to sleep,
We will sleep alone forever,
Will you lay me down,
In the same place with all I love.
Mend the broken homes,
Care for them they are our brothers,
Save the fading light in our souls.
In my opinion seeing is to know,
What you give,
Will always carry you,
And who's to say,
We won't survive it too.
Set a free all,
Relying on their will,
To make me all that I am,
And all that I'll be.
Set a free all,
Will fall between the cracks,
With memories of all that I am,
And I'll that I'll be.
Hit Counters
Friday, July 15, 2005
Quite a tiring day though.
We all are getting ready for the incoming test on Interior Technology.
Abit hard to understand.
But Nana is always there to help me.
Really going to sit with her one day and get this module straight.
I'll try not to repeat any module in this course.
I want everything to go smoothly this time.
Anyway.
In class all the guys told me that Nana is just right for me.
If you know what i mean.
But i just regard her as a friend.
That's all.
I want to concentrate on my course first.
Ok then.
That's all for now.
Post again some other day.
Iw ant to go and revise.
Chao.
[Withered At 11:38 PM ]
Wednesday, July 13, 2005
Today was a little bit of relax though.
Just had a lecture on Theory Of Design.
A two-hour lecture which i wanted to concentrate.
Not like last year which i just sleep the whole lecture.
Hehe.
This time i've to bucked.
I've to wake up from my slack.
After lecture which end at 3pm me,Nana,Azman and Elvin went for a bite at foodcourt five.
Drinking while going through what the lecturer had taught just now.
Nana is the girl that i talked about.
Which helped me to get myself used to the new class.
She's so bubbly.
So cheerful.
So friendly.
So kind.
Alright.
I'll not exaggerate ya.
Hehe.
We will always went to Woodlands Civic Centre to study.
Sometimes together with Azman,Wei Chong,Elvin and Susan.
Azman the guy which i can rely on to smoke.
A smoking company.
Wei Chong the naughty yet serious in study.
And Susan the "auntie".
Chatty girl.
Hehe.
So that's the bunch of friends i hang around with.
Anyway.
Thanks guy for being there to give me confidence to get a diploma.
Hope we'll be friends all the way in the years to come.
[Withered At 9:04 PM ]
Monday, July 11, 2005
It's been a while since i post an entry.
Need some time to get use to my new course.
An interesting course that I got to appeal to the school.
Interior Design is just the right course for me.
As it's more to creativity of a person.
Been busy in the course though.
And the new class have such helpful friends.
They have really help me to get use to my new course.
Even though I've to start all over again as a first year student.
But it's ok.
I don't mind.
As long as I've got a chance to mend my mistake last year is good enough.
So I'm going to concentrate in this course.
And get myself a diploma.
I really thank my classmate alot.
Especially a girl in my class.
She really help me alot in getting used to the new course.
We'll surely sit with the rest of the class like Elvin,Wei Chong,Azman and Susan.
Study ourself all the way.
Ok lah.
Got to go.
Will update again when I've the free time.
[Withered At 8:38 PM ]
Monday, May 30, 2005
Tak pernah ku alami
Tak mungkin ku hindari
Di himpit perasaan
Bayangan gurauan
Di dalam jaga ku tercari-cari
Di dalam tidur termimpi-mimpi
Siapakah gadis misteri
Melambai dan terus menyepi
Jangan biarkan ku ternanti-nanti
Usah benarkan masa berlalu pergi
Cinta mu gadis misteri
Adakah kekal dan abadi
Andai diberikan emas permata
Ku pilih senyuman mu
Andai ku punyai mahligai indah
Ku hadiahkan untuk mu
Dalam berjuta bintang berkelipan
Kau bagaikan kejora
Antara ribuan mata menikam
Takkan ku biarkan kau tenggelam.
[Withered At 1:12 PM ]
Wednesday, May 18, 2005
Now Listening To:Sendiri By May.
Looks like it's been a long time since i last put an entry.
Nothing much that happened lately that interest me to blog.
Anyway.
I've changed my blogskin.
It's been like how many months already never changed the skin.
Getting bored with the skin too.
So decided to changed it just now.
How is it.
Nicer then the last time right.
I'll changed the skin picture when i've the time.
Uses photoshop to create pictures.
Nice pictures.
Hehe.
Nothing to do mah.
So just play around with photoshop.
Taking various pictures and combined them into one graphical picture.
Hehe.
And i've also changed my tagboard to a shoutbox.
I think it's better.
Just that when want to logged in to your shoutbox account have to remember a six-digit number.
Not those which uses a ID which is easier to remember.
Around the past two or three days ago went out to meet my so-called god-sis at Causeway Point.
If not wrong it's on a Saturday.
can't remember much.
Anyway.
Meet her and her friends.
Went to eat at Burger King as her friend is treating us all.
Loads of money yar.
Hehe.
After that we went window shopping at the shops located at Causeway Point.
One of them is X-Craft.
One comment i have on X-Craft is.
They have cool funky materials.
Furthermore.
It's not all expensives.
That's what makes X-Craft a great place to buy funky streetwear things.
That'll be my shop.
Hehe.
What i'm i talking crap yar.
Hehe.
And she bought for me a leather wristband there.
Cost 5.90 bucks.
At first.
I don't want to accept her treat to buy for me somethings.
But she kept pestering that she wanted to buy something for me.
So at last.
I surrender to her.
You guys want to know why i said she is my so-called god-sis.
It's because to me i regard her as my god-sis.
Nothing more.
But she go and tell her parents that i'm her boyfriend.
What a fuct.
Hehe.
Her problem lah.
As long as i know the truth taht she's nothing more than my god-sis.
Is enough for me.
Gonna meet her on this Sunday.
As she is dropping down at Jurong to go to her friend's house.
Last Friday went to meet my ex Yana.
Went to show her something.
A lyric i've written for her.
At first.
I asked her to meet me at the void deck or something.
But then she asked me to come up her house.
As her parents were working.
Not yet at home.
So met her there.
Her younger sis and bro were at home.
Doing their crap stuff.
Went into her room to talked.
Catch up on all times.
But don't woory.
We didn't nothing much.
As i left her room door opened.
So all her crazy siblings can see that it's clean between her and me.
After awhile after 4.30.
Heard that her dad's came home.
At first was abit nervous.
But can't go anywhere.
Have to faced the music.
Sat with her dad at the living room.
And her dad became a part time reporter.
Hehe.
Asked this.
Asked that.
Haiz.
Old people.
Who cares.
Hehe.
Told her dad that i and Yana are just friends.
And we were just talking in her room to catched up on old times.
As it's been long since we met.
After his interrogation.
Told him that i've to meet my friends.
And got out of her house.
Hehe.
It was a nervous experienced for me talking to her dad in that situation.
But i promised you guys this.
I'm not meeting her dad anymore.
As i've gave a first impression to her dad that i'm not that kind of in law for them.
Hehe.
So they just thought of me as Yana's friend.
Good riddance.
Hehe.
[Withered At 2:50 PM ]
Monday, May 09, 2005
Now Listening To:Tunduk Mengalah By Data.
It's been a while i've didn't blog.
Yup.
Almost a week.
Well.
Just don't have the mood to blog.
With my result like that.
With Shima no longer with me.
Haiz.
Been a bit sad.
But felt like no feelings in me anymore.
More like a dead corpse.
Hehe.
Felt like the world is crumbling down on me.
Haiz.
Double haiz.
Now Shima is with Izam.
There in a relationship.
A mix of sad,anger and dissapointed.
Can't believe my very own brother did this to me.
But it's my fault also.
I just not able to accept Shima as my true stead.
Too hurt by the past.
That's why she can't hold it any longer with the waiting.
Thus.
Ask for break.
Because Izam sound her.
And she accepted.
It's ok.
I must accept reality.
Reality SUX!
Big time.
Hehe.
I'll still treat Izam as my bro though.
He had even say sorry for what happened.
Just that lately.
Shima had started to show her affection to Izam.
I'll still be friends with Shima.
But i can't be joining Izam and the other for their jam anymore.
Just no interest in what they doing.
Don't know lah.
Can't even make up my mind on the reason.
Just let it be.
But Shima still treat me as her best friend.
Said that our time together was the memorable moments for her.
Who cares.
Let them have their time together.
Wanna cry but my eyes too dried of tears.
For the time being.
I want to be alone.
No Shima.
No Izam.
Till i'm ok.
Then i'll contact them.
I haven't told my parents about the result.
Because i'm waiting for the Mother's day celebration to passed then i'll tell them.
I don't want to break the haapiness they're having for the Mother's Day which happened on Saturday last week.
We had bought KFC and Pizza Hut for the celebration.
Even called down our cousin to joined in the celebration.
It was great.
I ate alot.
Can't missed this opportunity of a lifetime.
Ate till my stomach was like three month pregnant.
Hehe.
So around this coming Wednesday when the result is sent to my home.
I'll tell my parents.
Hopefully can go some where.
Truthfully.
I don't even have the strength to move ahead.
To me.
All that's in front is in the darkness.
I just leave everything to God to decide.
I just lost my spirit to continue this life.
Life had never been niced to me.
I understand it now.
Hate life.
So i'll tell my parents on Wednesday then.
See how it goes.
Probably going to NS.
Yup.
Jannah,a friend i get to know from my last time workplace,Mcdonald,had feelings to me since last time.
She is great person to me.
Recently she confess to me her feelings.
But like i always said.
I can't have any relationship anymore.
I stopped it since last time.
So sorry that she had to hear it.
But she still will have the feelings to me.
Forever.
I'll cherish that from her.
She is the nice type of girl.
That i know.
Known her for so long.
All her character i knew.
Hehe.
She even told me to stopped drinking slowly.
So caring.
Awww.
Hehe.
But i told her straight that she can find a better guy than me.
I realised i'm not meant to have relationship.
I've accepted what's meant to be for me.
[Withered At 1:29 PM ]
Thursday, May 05, 2005
Now Listening To:Luka Seribu Rindu By Fotograf.
The result is out today.
Check my result.
And what to say.
Not allowed to continue in this course.
Haiz.
My fingers are shaking now holding on to the news i got.
Trying to hold on to the sadness.
Even worse.
Failed everything.
Haiz.
So sad.
But what happened.
Had happened.
Later going to explain to my mum about this.
She's not going to be quite glad to hear the news.
Haiz.
What i'm going to do with the rest of this life.
Hmm.
Guess going to NS then.
No choice.
That's the only way i have now.
Even my mum said that if i failed just go NS.
She can't say much since she received the warning letter that the poly sent to my home because of my attendence.
I should have known that i'm not capable in poly.
But no.
My parents had to psycho me.
Well.
It's been nice being in this poly for a year.
All the people i got to know.
Especially Banu,Michelle,Faredz,Clive,Qi Xiang and the rest of the classmates.
They are all great friends i've known since in this poly.
This is what it meant to be.
I bet later my classmates will check this entry to find out how i did.
Well.
It's nice knowing you guys.
Will never forget you guys.
Now i've to discuss with my mum.
See if she agreed if i'm going to NS.
And i'll not be going to blog much in the future.
Because why.
Because i'll be in the camp for two and a half years going through my NS.
Come out also just to meet up my friends and Shima.
Talking about Shima.
Told her on the phone just now.
She felt sad for me too.
She asked me to cheer up.
Let it be lah k.
I just can't speak much.
Meeting her later.
If not going town to buy her slippers.
But i don't have the mood.
Lost it.
So just sit at her house and do nothing.
That's what i guess.
It's been great blogging here.
Anyway.
Thanks for all that had visited my blog.
Your presence is much appreciated.
Hope you all just enjoy what's left of it.
Will not delete though.
Memories are all etched in it.
So NS.
Here i come.
Mostly likely i go to Army.
Because i have the basics learnt in NCC during my secondary school days.
So the goverment will surely sent me to Army.
Been nice blogging here.
I'll blog again when i have the time.
Just you guys read what's left of it.
Going to explain to my mum now.
So long guys.
Take care always.
And have a fun life ahead.
Bye........
[Withered At 11:05 AM ]